Thank you for all the kind comments and emails, after my hard announcements that the Lush sites would be (sort of) closing this week. (I say sort of because I absolutely intend to pay to host them until forever, so we can access all that wonderfulness long after this Friday.) I've felt a lot of love since Friday, and I hope the other writers have too. It feels like a part of my family is scattering away from me, and that's scary and sad, but all the love and support from the readers (and the writers, too) make the scattering feel less scary and more exciting. We have new things ahead of us! The goodbye is bittersweet, but as my smart friend Caitlin said, it's mostly sweet and that's a good time to walk away.
You know how some people exclaim that this will be the year (whatever year it happens to be) when they say yes more? Yes to ziplining! Yes to mid-week dinner plans! Yes to new groups and activities and intimidating opportunities! Well, ask anyone who knows me, and I have saying yes down. I say yes a lot, to a lot of different things. (Including ziplining, which I can assure you I'll never say yes to AGAIN so help me.) While this isn't necessarily a bad thing--oh the beautiful things I've gotten to do because of this quality of mine--I think 2013 is unfolding as the year I say yes slightly less often. Or, say yes to much slower, calmer things. Yes to more books, to cooking, to closing my laptop when I get home so I can be at home.
I hope all this newfound time inspires me to share new and different things here, I really do like this space a lot, but I also hope this time just gives me a little extra breathing room. It's what I'm looking forward to most, more time to breathe.
Still, this week has been tough. (I hope you're reading all our last posts, please say yes.) I expect next week to be a little tough, too. Change, man. It's kind of weird, with all its possibilities and fresh starts and "the best is yes to come"s while also being a total bitch.
I came here to thank you, though, so that's what I'd like to end on. I hit publish last week, with a lot of worry, and as the comments came in, that worry just rolled away. Your words, they've always been the absolute best, and I'm so grateful for them. I started blogging almost six years ago and while a lot has changed since then (Twitter was just a baby! I was much skinnier! VERONICA MARS WAS STILL ON!), my gratitude has never wavered.
I talked to Kyle tonight about gratitude, and he told me he was grateful for milkshakes. Well, even though that's not a bad thing to be grateful for (milkshakes are delicious), I told him that today I am grateful for you.