Most days are jam-packed. Wake up (early), shower, get dressed, snuggle the baby boy, get him dressed, grab a granola bar, drive drive drive, work work work, lunch, work work work, drive drive drive, burst in and snuggle the boy some more, feed him dinner, PLAY!, bath, pjs, bed (for him), dinner for me, quick rest, work-out (gym or home, depends), dishes, TV, blog blog blog, emails, pay bills, bed (for me).
I surprisingly like it like this way. I say surprisingly because I can be a real lazy ass if given the chance. But, seriously, I like a busy schedule, a busy life, a dozen balls in the air at any given point. I take on countless projects because they excite me. I also get a little thrill out of long to-do lists and more little thrills after I check something off those long to-do lists. I love multi-tasking; it's one of my favorite things, but I realized just last night as I was 1) watching Survivor with Mike 2) eating dinner and 3) working on the thank-you cards for Kyle's birthday presents that it's really easy to half-ass something when you're also doing a dozen other somethings.
Half-assing Survivor is one thing. Half-assing time with Mike or time with Kyle or even time eating a meal is another.
Sometimes it's daunting to just be still even though it's necessary for a sane mind, I'd say.
Running and working-out has helped me with this, somewhat. While I'm jogging or wishing pain on Jillian Michaels, I have to de-clutter my thoughts and there's literally nothing else I can do while exercising except think and focus. That's a much-needed-although-difficult lesson in being present.
It's not nearly enough, though, as I have 23 additional daily hours where my focus is spread thin. So, starting today, I'm going to try very, very hard to focus on one thing at a time, at least once a day. If I'm watching Gilmore Girls or playing with Kyle or reading a book, that's what I need to be doing, not also doing something else. This is a small step, but I like small steps. They remind me big changes take time and that's perfectly OK. I'm adding this to my 2010 list because that's my favorite list in the world right now and we've already discussed my love for lists.
For today: I have a date night with my husband. For however long we're at dinner, I'm going to be at dinner, nowhere else.
What about you? What's the one thing you're going to do fully today?