We got some crappy news today. News of the financial variety. Economy, you can start stroking my hair and rubbing my shoulders any day now. My first thought upon hearing the news was: oh hell no, this is not the year for this, which is kind of ridiculous, I know. Life isn't sectioned off into years, not really. Good and bad and glorious and awful things are all jammed into every year, aren't they?
My main goal for this year was to become the best version of myself and all those numbered items in my sidebar are specific things I've always wanted to do yet have continually put off because I get in my own way too often. I never made a goal to have a smooth-sailing kind-of year (hindsight, damn you) because that's just not very realistic.
Ultimately, these damn things just happen, can't avoid them. It's how we roll with them that matters. Or something obnoxiously upbeat like that.
See, I'm trying to stay positive, look on the bright side, blah blah cheesefest blah, but I'm also kind of scared. It just seems like every time we get a few steps ahead and can plan a trip away or updates on our house or a nice pair of jeans, something comes along and pulls the rug out from under us and we're all, PEACE OUT SANTA FE, HOPE YOU'RE STILL THERE NEXT YEAR! Also, it's so much easier to go without before having kids. Kyle likes to eat and expects his parents to give him food (he's so DEMANDING, my god).
It's just tough, is what I guess I'm trying to say, and it's tough for so many of us, I know. This is just a tough time END OF STORY and we're all just crossing our fingers and saying some prayers and crunching some numbers and hoping the upswing is right around the corner. I didn't go to the gym tonight, even though I originally planned to, and I didn't do any laundry like I originally planned to and.....that's how I deal with problems. I just freeze. And this is not how I wanted this year to be. I've spent a long, long time holding my breath for various reasons and no matter how scared I am right now, I'm not going to hit the pause button. I just can't.
Anyway, no real way to wrap this post up. We got some shitty news and we're trying to figure some things out, and we're trying to stay positive even though we're a little scared, too.
But what I need from you is a little cheering up, a little distracting. I want to read good things in this comment section, so tell me something you're celebrating this month. Anything at all! Give me a little perspective, OK? Because the truth is, we're fine. We'll be fine. Everything's fine even if it doesn't quite feel fine right at this moment.