Next Friday, I've secured a babysitter, picked the restaurant, and asked Mike to take off work early (and also skip lunch). We're going to Fred's, a burger place in Fort Worth, where I'll be enjoying a burger without the word "veggie" in front of it and also a beer. Or two. That's right, my friends, my time has (just about) come.
It's a few days before the Biggest Blogging Loser officially ends but I'm technically not participating in the competition anymore (for logisitcal not weight-loss reasons). It's also a few pounds shy of my goal, but I want to celebrate with Mike and next Friday has presented itself as a great opportunity to do just that.
What are we celebrating? Glad you asked! I'm at a weight I haven't seen since our wedding. I'm running more and farther than ever before in my life. I'm eating and cooking better, wholer, healthier foods. I choose exercise or bitching to Natalie over binge eating when I'm stressed.
Oh, also, I went 81 straight days without a single piece of chocolate, bite of meat, or sip of something stronger than a Diet Dr. Pepper.
Worth celebrating!
I have a lot of thoughts on how I'll finish reaching my goal weight and then maintaining that weight after introducing alcohol, meat, and sweets back into my diet, but I need to sort through those thoughts a little better and I also need a little distance from the Biggest Blogging Loser. It was a great idea and I met a lot of wonderful people through it, but it was a surprising experience for me in a lot of ways. Not ready to tackle those thoughts yet, so another day.
I'll also have a before-and-after photo to show you next Friday.
It's been a really hard, emotional, bumpy couple months, as you know, and I remember at one point standing in front of the pantry thinking, "I DESERVE A THIN MINT. I SHOULD EAT THAT THIN MINT RIGHT NOW." I didn't. I didn't because of you. Because I couldn't bear the thought of admitting defeat to you. Because so many of you believe in me even when I don't deserve that faith.
I say it a lot, and I mean it always, I just wouldn't be who I am without you.
I'll enjoy that beer as if you were sitting with me. I swear.