What I've learned in my 30+ years is that life is simply not a straight line, at least not for me. I start off at one point--with fitness, for example--and there will always come a time when I move backward, maybe a few giant steps back from where I started, even. I've always thought the real secret to life is to just figure out how to maintain progress, and I still think that. I just don't think I'll ever completely master it. There will always be a month here, six months there, when I just don't live up to my full potential.
I've failed this half-marathon training, if you couldn't tell from my lack of half-marathon training updates. I "run" my next half in less than a month, and my training has been a couple miles this week, a brisk walk the next, and I'm surprisingly okay with all this. Last fall, I was running like a machine and this fall I'm just not. Maybe next fall I will again.
I'm tired of beating myself up over whatever ebb or flow I happen to find myself in.
I like pushing myself and setting goals and declaring personal challenges but sometimes goals are set and not met. That's just how it goes.
Phew, good to get that all out.
I'm looking forward to 2013. I'm looking forward to a few fitness challenges, a few (shorter) races--I just don't think I'm meant for so many half-marathons. I love me a 10K, though--and maybe some other things, too.. If I don't overly excel at those things, though, that'll be okay.
We ebb, we flow, we keep on trying.